It hurts so much

I don't know where Natalie pick up spitting her saliva from. Since last weekend, she has been doing it. Over the weekend I managed to prevent her from doing so, by saying she is such a dirty girl and forfeit her treats. But on Monday, I started hearing complains of her spitting again, so probably she see someone doing it in school.

Yesterday, it happened again. This time she spit at our helper, i slapped her lightly on her face and told her she shouldn't be doing that. She became angry and started kicking me. And i then hit her on her thigh. She din cry but looked angrily at me. It hurts so much to hit her. I can't explain the kinda pain that was going through me.

And when she saw my mum, she went hug my mum and started crying. And when my mum explain to her that she shouldn't be spitting and come and apolgise to me. She said in her tears "mummi sorry" and hugged me. I almost cried. It simply hurt so much.